Call time

Could someone call time please on this chemo lark? Am i allowed to wake up now? Can I pay more and fast track this whole thing? I know I am probably half-way through but boy that fact does not help in the slightest bit. And yes another thing - the next person to tell me to keep a positive attitude will be physically assaulted. The number of people who repeat that inane mantra ...will you please understand that the problem is not about being positive? Give me a deadly disease and believe me I will move electrons to become positive. The problem rather is about the daily struggle to eat, shit, work and live.

Is the frustration showing?....yup, I am losing it.